"This is my Philosophy"

"This is my Philosophy"

Written by Kimberly Ann Goins

This is my philosophy
Get with the program if you want to get with me
My life isn't some kind of tragedy
Actually, you are laughable; that's why you make it comedy

You talking all of this and that
About how I'm not really all that
Well that may be true, but who is it that keeps on calling me?
Trying to convince me to see
You instead of seeing me
Cause the reality
Is that there never really was a you and me

I'm going to speak some words you never heard
Boy, I know I'm confusing you with my many words
I don't want you anymore
There is no room for you, and I can't ignore
The words that you said
You can't take them back cause they're in my head
And what you said hurt me so bad
Made me cry salty tears; I was so sad

This is my philosphy
If you can't add to this greatness
Or to my success
Then I must confess
That there is no you and me

This is my philosophy
You had a treasure that you weren't prepared for
You knew I was so much more
Than any girl you'd ever known
But all of those bad seeds you've sown
In my life
It was like a knife
You plunged directly into my heart

There can never be us
Cause you only want to beat me down so much
You have to stomp me with your large, pounding feet
Till, there is less than anything, and I must retreat
Not speak my mind
Not speak at all or at any time
That's what you want me to be
Someone silenced by your insensitivity
But it was more than just being mean
It was demonic, and that jealousy you had was so green
You couldn't make me your wife
Not when you saw my life
And was jealous because I didn't need you
I'm a superstar in my own right; I know what I have to do
I'm on a mission, a soul-saving mission
And you were interfering with that, trying to prevent its fruition

This is my philosophy
Not just anybody can be with me
There are few who are chosen
Because still more are frozen
And mired in uncertainty and unmoving
Cause they are so damn afraid of losing
But I'm a climber; I make mountains my valleys
And I am always looking above and around all trees
Cause I can see bright lights over the horizon
And I know I will soon see the Sun(Son)
So just keep on traversing the world in your own way
And I'll just continue to be me each day
And I'll write in words that few can understand
Puzzling parables written by an invisible Hand

This is my philosophy
I don't need you when God got me
He is who looks out and over me
He is who lets my eyes see
And that is key
Cause He poured water over my eyes
Now, I can see countless stars in the skies
And now, I no longer fall for your fruitless lies
And your effort is barren, no it doesn't multiply
Cause there is no soil in which it could plant root
I rid my mind and soul of unnecessary soot
It's not blackened nor burdened
But it is pure and devoid of hurtness

This is my philosophy.

Extraordinary/Ordinary Written by Kimberly Ann Goins

Being ordinary is not acceptable. It is not acceptable because God created us to be extraordinary. We are a part of a royal priesthood. We are precious gems in the eyes of our Father. So why is it that so many Christians have decided that it is okay to be ordinary. Being ordinary signifies complacency. Christians need to get out of their comfort zones and use all of those gifts that the Lord has planted within them. Why are you just sitting in the church pews every Sunday, but Monday through Saturday you aren't making any sort of positive difference? This is a song that is meant to shake some of us up a bit. I can't speak for anyone else, but as for Kimberly Ann Goins, I was not created to be ordinary. I have never been ordinary, and I never will be. I am EXTRA-ORDINARY! This is not arrogance. I am extra-ordinary because my Father says so!

Verse 1
So many people settle for mediocrity
That's a shame and a travesty
When God intended so much more for them,

Are you one of those people I'm talking to?
If so, you probably already know
What I'm about to say next,

You have so much to be proud of
You have accomplished so much
But it isn't enough for you
And you're wondering why is that,

Chorus (2x)
It's because you chose to be ordinary
Rather than extraordinary
You chose to be ordinary
When instead you should have chosen to be
Extra-ordinary!

Verse 2
Extra ordinary
That is what you should strive to be
The world says to be ordinary is just enough
And you know that you're not cool with that,

See people told me to just do well in school
Graduate and get a job and make a lot of money
That's fine and everything, but I knew for me
There was so much more to life than that,

Chorus (2x)
Why should I choose to be ordinary
Rather than extraordinary?
I will not choose to be ordinary
Not when I can be so much more
Not when I can be
Extra-ordinary!

Verse 3
What am I talking about?
I know that you are feeling confused
About what I mean when I say
Extra-ordinary,

What I'm saying is this
God has blessed you with all kinds of gifts
I think that's worth repeating
With all kinds of gifts,
He gave you a gift for intercession, girl
He gave you your beautiful voice
To sing and to speak and to preach
But wait, I'm not done just yet
He gave you your gift for dreams and visions
Not to mention interpretation
He gave you your gift for movement and form
Oh you didn't know, there's a dancer in you too!
Not only that, but he gave you some artistic
Qualities that you haven't even been introduced to yet
But that He will reveal in due time
Can't you see, that's just a fragment of the gifts that He's blessed you with?
So why are you settling to just be someone else's perception of you
You know that you are more than any of them even know
They don't even know what is going on with you on the inside
All that spirit
Has to come out

Chorus (2x)
Don't you settle for ordinary
Not when you are extraordinary
You were never created to be ordinary
Not in this life nor in the life to come
Because you are truly
Extra-ordinary

So go on and be what God wants you to be
You aren't meant to be ordinary
You are EXTRA-ORDINARY.

"How Do I Get Out" Written by Kimberly Goins

First, I must preface this song by saying that it is not autobiographical. Whenever I write, 99% of the time I write from the first person perspective. A lot of what I write comes from personal experiences. Other things I write about reflect certain feelings that I may have had myself or that others may have had, but the experiences mentioned in the song are not all things that I have experienced. Really read the words of this song, and think about how a person feels who is in this particular situation that I chose to write about. I had to write from a first person perspective to capture the essence of those feelings.

"How Do I Get Out"

Written by Kimberly Goins

Verse 1
This isn't what I thought it would be
I am confused cause you aren't the person
That I thought you were
Now, I'm fighting to get out
I'm dying inside cause I don't like who I am
When I'm with you
My smile isn't as bright
In fact I find myself in misery
Whenever you come around me
It's like a dark cloud coming over me

Chorus
Now, all I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 2
I never was someone who had low self-esteem
Yet, every second I'm in your presence
You have something negative to say
Trying to turn me against me
You aren't secure with yourself
That's why you seek to destroy my confidence
Because then I will be dependent on you
To give me self-esteem
What makes me so sad is that
It has worked for so long
Cause I still am with you after all these years
And I just want to know this one thing

Chorus
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 3
Every time you hit me I hate myself a little more
It isn't you I hate
Because I truly blame me
How could someone so beautiful and smart
Fall into a situation like this?
It's like I know deep down inside who I am
But I cannot seem to find that person
She died a long time ago
So even though I need to leave
I just don't have the strength to walk away from you

Chorus
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 4
I just keep on playing with the gun
Too afraid to let it go off
Too afraid to end it all
Cause I know that hell would be my destiny
But truthfully, isn't it hell that I'm living in?
I don't know where to go
Or who to turn to
I feel like God has turned His back on me
Cause I was so foolish
I didn't listen to Him
I chose someone who hated me
Over His love
Now, I'm stuck in a situation
That I just can't get out

Chorus
Now, all I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?