"How Do I Get Out" Written by Kimberly Goins

First, I must preface this song by saying that it is not autobiographical. Whenever I write, 99% of the time I write from the first person perspective. A lot of what I write comes from personal experiences. Other things I write about reflect certain feelings that I may have had myself or that others may have had, but the experiences mentioned in the song are not all things that I have experienced. Really read the words of this song, and think about how a person feels who is in this particular situation that I chose to write about. I had to write from a first person perspective to capture the essence of those feelings.

"How Do I Get Out"

Written by Kimberly Goins

Verse 1
This isn't what I thought it would be
I am confused cause you aren't the person
That I thought you were
Now, I'm fighting to get out
I'm dying inside cause I don't like who I am
When I'm with you
My smile isn't as bright
In fact I find myself in misery
Whenever you come around me
It's like a dark cloud coming over me

Chorus
Now, all I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 2
I never was someone who had low self-esteem
Yet, every second I'm in your presence
You have something negative to say
Trying to turn me against me
You aren't secure with yourself
That's why you seek to destroy my confidence
Because then I will be dependent on you
To give me self-esteem
What makes me so sad is that
It has worked for so long
Cause I still am with you after all these years
And I just want to know this one thing

Chorus
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 3
Every time you hit me I hate myself a little more
It isn't you I hate
Because I truly blame me
How could someone so beautiful and smart
Fall into a situation like this?
It's like I know deep down inside who I am
But I cannot seem to find that person
She died a long time ago
So even though I need to leave
I just don't have the strength to walk away from you

Chorus
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?
Cause I'm losing myself when I'm with you

Verse 4
I just keep on playing with the gun
Too afraid to let it go off
Too afraid to end it all
Cause I know that hell would be my destiny
But truthfully, isn't it hell that I'm living in?
I don't know where to go
Or who to turn to
I feel like God has turned His back on me
Cause I was so foolish
I didn't listen to Him
I chose someone who hated me
Over His love
Now, I'm stuck in a situation
That I just can't get out

Chorus
Now, all I want to know is
How do I get out?
I am so trapped, lost, and confused
All I want to know is
How do I get out?