"Mend A Heart"; She Was A Victim, Never A Victor

These are two pieces that I wrote awhile ago, in February to be exact. I hope that you enjoy them both! Mend a heart is a song that talks about all of the hopelessness that's going on in the world, and how if I could just mend one heart my life would not be in vein. The other piece, She was a victim, never a victor, is a poem, a spoken word piece to be exact. It is about one woman's triumphant acceptance of who she is. She once was a victim of her circumstances, but by learning to love herself and by developing a relationship with God, she comes to become the victor rather than the victim.

“Mend A Heart”

Written by Kimberly Goins

Verse 1
I see poverty all around
So many children are starving
Can you see those who are stricken by aids
There is so much despair
There has got to be something we can do
To help
But I feel so helpless
Cause there is so much heartache in this world
If I can just help mend one heart
Then I will feel that my life
Is not in vain

Verse 2
Everyday children are coming into this sinful world
Already behind
Cause they are born with birth defects
And all sorts of disabilities
That aren’t their fault
Have you ever seen a crack addicted baby
How can it not bring tears to your eyes
Is there a wonder why I want to do something
If I can just mend one heart
I will feel that my life
Is not in vain

Verse 3
So many people are walking around spiritually dead
Therefore, they are seeking solace in all the wrong things
People judge the prostitute for selling her body
When they should be loving her
And wondering why she sunk so low
Have you ever seen a heroin addict
How can you not be overcome with emotion
Looking at that poor, broken person
Who would rather escape reality through broken veins
If I can just mend at least one heart
I will feel that my life
Is not in vain

Verse 4
So many people are contemplating suicide
And so many people are completing the task
I cannot help but wonder what could have been done
Maybe I could just be a friend
To one of those lonely hearts
And tell them that they have at least one person who cares
Cause imagine what it feels like
To feel like you’re alone, like nobody cares
I just want to mend at least one heart
Then I will feel that my life
Is not in vain

Verse 5
So many people are walking around without any peace
They aren’t living really
Cause they don’t have any joy
I just wish I could tell them about the joy of the Lord
And that would fill them
They would never be the same
I don’t want for anybody to live a life of unhappiness
I want for everyone to live abundantly
And be so bountfully blessed
That’s why if I mend at least one heart
I will feel that my life
Is not in vain

She Was A Victim, Never A Victor

Written by Kimberly

I was never the victor
Cause I was the victim
Always blaming them
For what I was
What I’ve become
It was never my fault
Always everyone but me
That is not the true story
There is so much more truth to see
And though this will be sort of painful
I must address this

Part 1
What was I to be
When the odds were stacked against me
I was a victim of a bad situation
Had no control over others’ motivation
How could I live life to the fullest
When every one was coming against this
Never seeing my true beauty
Or even the complete story
They couldn’t recognize the angel before their eyes
Instead they chose to destroy the unknown with their vicious lies
How could I be anything more than a victim
When I was so much more than them
Yet they wouldn’t even recognize the greatness
Instead they wanted to highlight the sadness
I was never a victor, always a victim
But it wasn’t my fault, who else can I blame but them
I was never a victor, always a victim
But it wasn’t my fault, who else can I blame but them

Part 2
What was I to do
When I had no clue
Of who I was or what I should be
I didn’t even know me
All I knew was what others wanted to see
And they didn’t see adequately
They saw the portrait of me
They didn’t see the real me
They didn’t even know completely
But were they to blame for freely
Adopting a perfect persona perfectly
When this aquarius adapted seemingly
Easily

To everything
And everyone
Wanting to please someone
Instead of the One
Never able to overcome
The pressure of conforming
Instead of ever performing
This is alarming
Cause she was a victim, never a victor
But it wasn’t their fault, who could blame them
Cause she was a victim, never a victor
But it wasn’t their fault, who could blame them

Part 3
Where was I to go
Where was I to turn
I had to get on the flo
Cause what I had inside, oh what a burn
Stuff needing to come out
Cause I had a story that needed to be shared
I was ready to show what I’m about
I had a soul that was ready to be bared
So I got on my knees
Started to pray
Begged my God please
Show me your way
Cause I don’t know
But Lord, I’m ready to learn
Ready to let it all out
Simply speak these simple words, nothing spared
I have gotten this thought
That must be aired
I have come to see what it means to be free
I am not afraid to lay
My head down, close my eyes, pray so deeply
This is my fresh start, beginning today
Cause I was a victim, never a victor
But it wasn’t nobody’s fault but mine
Cause I was a victim, never a victor
But it wasn’t nobody’s fault but mine

Part 4
Now I stand before you victorious
Cause I feel so proud, and it’s glorious
And I’m really alright, this feeling is notorious
For those who choose to live in the light, it’s so joyous
Personally, my life is better than it’s ever been
And that’s saying so much, cause if you’ve seen what I’ve seen
I shouldn’t be standing, shining brighter than a star
Some folks say you should be less than you are
But what I’ve done seen, what has been done
To me, made me come to be more than anyone
No one could limit this limitless vessel
Cause the spirit is willing to lead this girl to the next level
Hey, I’m never defeated
Always coming up, never broken, always more completed
Yes, everything everybody took away from me
Was meant to be gone, cause then I was given greater pieces don’t you see
Some stuff had to be taken away
Some people had to walk their way
That is what built up this fortress
And gave her peace, hope in all distress
This vision of perfection you see before you
Would not have been possible without those who
Talked about me in their veiled attempt at destruction
What they didn’t know was I excel in such construction
Cause this ain’t nothing but reincarnation
Cause I’m becoming better in each lifetime of tribulation
In this sensation
I find perfect peace, my sanitation
Is in my love of God, He is my meditation
And my motivation
Is to live life for Him, and no one else, spare your spiritual degradation
I am much more through this enlightened salvation
I am a victor, never a victim
Cause I had no one to blame, but myself
And then I found myself
And saw that I actually am
I am a victor, never a victim
Cause I have no one to blame, but myself
So I say it proudly
Always a victor, never a victim